yesterday...all my troubles seemed so far away, now its though as if they're here to stay, o i believe in yesterday.
my dad played that song for my last night on the guitar. we spent a long time last night just talking.
o and by the way, shortly after my last entry about how my parents were gettinga divorce, my dad flipped out on my brother and threw a table accross the kitchen. very sweet guy i know.
but that was monday night. tuesday was the worst day.
monday night my brother called the police and my dad was taken out of the house by the police and spent monday night at a hotel. he wasnt drunk, i guess just freakin out cuz he was sober, i dont really know. but i talked to him a lot last night just me and him, and him and my mom must have talked last night because things are a lot better today.
its amazing how your life can change so much in 4 days.
monday life was fine, the night was the worst night of my life, one that i will remember for the rest of my life, tuesday i hated my life i was at my counselors office almost all day crying. i didnt want to go home tuesday after school. then last night i talked to my dad and i saw his side of everything and we cried together. he said he felt like no one loved him and monday night when my brother called the police he cried that whole night at the hotel. he didnt sleep. that made me feel like someone punched my in the chest and stuck their hand in there and gave my lungs a good squeeze. and today wasnt much better, until i got home.
so thats why i think my parents mustve talked last night, because they went out to my moms office party together tonight. they were even joking around with eachother. my parents really confused me. they think me and my brother are the ones that need therapy? hmm...
i told jackie about it today. shes the first person other than my counselor that i've told about this. shes awesome. i'll probably tell katherine about it when she comes back from london. what a wonderful fucking week for her to be away on vacation. i'm not mad at her, just mad. she is who i really wanted to have to talk to these past couple of days.
i just have so many different feelings going on inside me. i dont know what i'm feeling about anyone right now...
the only thing keeping me from ending this day by plopping into bed is that the OC is on tonight. new episode that i've been waiting for for a good 2 weeks.
arite i have to go do my hw and get dinner finished. i just had to write all of that and let it out.
Music: incubus
