http://confused.blogdrive.com/ Little Laur Wed, 23 Feb 2005 08:40:01 PST http://www.blogdrive.com Copyright 2005. http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/31.html Wed, 23 Feb 2005 15:16:09 GMT i havent updated in a while. but i really need to have somewhere to let everything out. a lot of my friends have those livejournals and they like post them on their profiles and stuff. thats just not for me. when i let out my feelings into a journal, its because i cant really talk about it with anyone else. its not to let everyone and their moms see what i'm thinking. but anyways im trying this new diet thing. my cousin has motivated me. she lost so much weight and she looks so good. so i'm going to the gym a lot more now and i'm kind of enjoying it more i guess. but i need to work on the... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=31 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/30.html Sat, 24 Jul 2004 17:35:36 GMT i really do have too much time to think about everything went out last night it was good times except who had to be there? but my cousin went downsairs for a bacon egg and cheese to find out she ate the last piece of cheese like i know i'm being selfish and i know that they are really struggling right now but dont you know when you're intruding JUST one step too far? i just dont know what to do maybe i should just talk to her about it? but shes SO fucking sensitive shed probably take it the wrong way and cry. and now i like this kid but idk whats going to happen with... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=30 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/29.html Sat, 24 Jul 2004 02:23:20 GMT havent written in foreverrr things are a lot better now my cousins moved up hurr from texas and they're living with us for a while getting kind of rough considering i'm an only girl my whole life with a family of boys and now i have to share all of my clothes and make up and hair products with someone its okay for me to throw my clothes on the ground. not for her to wear my clothes and leave them on my floor or not hang them back up. why the fuck should i have to wash my own clothes if i wasnt the one getting them all dirty and shit. AND to top it all off she got a job at the... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=29 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/28.html Sun, 18 Apr 2004 02:51:34 GMT Who put good before bye? Who thought that’d be a cool phrase? Well I’m not a fan. Byes aren’t good They never are You’re saying ‘goodbye’ to someone Means you’re not going to see them Possibly ever again. I don’t know about you But that’s not my definition of good. In fact, that sucks A lot. Most of the time the ‘goodbye’ isn’t exactly wanted By one side of the party Maybe even both. But it’s necessary, Even if unexplainable. And you’re left there With all of these questions And the only thing close to an answer Is two words that make you fall apart But there’s... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=28 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/27.html Sat, 17 Apr 2004 22:31:55 GMT things were going amazingly with me and connor, we've been spending a lot of time together, just like we both said we wanted. but now all of a sudden last night he lost a big game and hes upset. which is understandable. but he was talkign to me online talking about how he wants a break from everything and he doesnt know what to do or what hes feeling? and i was like um, wait do you mean for you and me? and he said he didnt know. okay momentary break, my landlord is in my backyard with his fucking kids and i really want to scream bc they are so incredibly obnoxious and besides the fact that... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=27 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/26.html Sat, 10 Apr 2004 20:25:55 GMT I feel bitter But I shouldn’t Because its my fault I said the words The words that will change what we have I said I didn’t want you anymore But I lied Again But for the first time You believed my lie Why is it the one time I want you To call me out on my lie You sit in silence? Is that why I’m bitter? Because you don’t know how much I love you How much I want you How much apart of me that you’ve become but everytime i try to tell you you interupt you tell me how i'm feeling all i want to tell you is that i love you. i love you. i love... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=26 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/25.html Sat, 10 Apr 2004 20:23:06 GMT Apologies don’t mean shit I wish they did I wish I’m sorry could mend it all Fix the break The break I caused Because now this break Is breaking things Its breaking me Its breaking us I’m sorry What did it do? Nothing It didn’t make it better But I’m sorry, It lets you know that I want it back I want you back I want back what we had So if I could go back To yesterday And take it back Back what I said To fix the break The break I caused Then I would But the world doesn’t work like that Life is full of things you can’t fix I don’t want this to be one of those... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=25 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/24.html Sun, 21 Dec 2003 01:51:13 GMT i'm so tired i started the atkins diet today. its going pretty well. i just feel so lazy and shlumpy so i need a physical change. and im also going to start running with kathryn, shes so sweet. i dont really have much to say i havent written since the beginning of the week with the whole parents thing. but i dont know if my parents are getting divorced anymore..theyre being nice to eachotehr and stuff...i guess they're doing a trial thing, because the niceness seems really forced. whatever as long as the yelling stops i dont really care. i saw mona lisa smiles last... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=24 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/23.html Thu, 18 Dec 2003 01:21:50 GMT a retake on whats been going on the past couple of dayss:: yesterday...all my troubles seemed so far away, now its though as if they're here to stay, o i believe in yesterday. my dad played that song for my last night on the guitar. we spent a long time last night just talking. o and by the way, shortly after my last entry about how my parents were gettinga divorce, my dad flipped out on my brother and threw a table accross the kitchen. very sweet guy i know. but that was monday night. tuesday was the worst day. monday night my brother called the police and my... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=23 http://confused.blogdrive.com/archive/22.html Tue, 16 Dec 2003 00:19:58 GMT i think my parents are getting a divorce and they didnt tell me about it yet. my brothers away message the other day was this big long thing about how my dad still hasnt given up drinking and how my mom was talking to him about it and how she thinks they might seperate. okay so not divorce but seperate. then my brother friend, rob, the annoying one, sent me an email asking me if i needed to talk about it? and i dont even know whats going on what am i suppose to talk about? i didnt even know anything was wrong. i mean i know my mom slept on the couch the other night but i figured they... (more) http://confused.blogdrive.com/comments?id=22